When it came - when I heard the words - time suddenly stopped. In the next instant - my thoughts became a swirling vortex of emotion so strong that I felt like I was going to fall down...
My mother had lost her battle with COPD... None of us expected that the end would come so quickly. Just a few days before, I'd received a call from my Aunt; Mom was in the hospital & on a ventilator. Unable to speak, she was still fully alert, responding to the hospital staff & writing notes to communicate. Within a day, she was breathing again on her own & when I spoke to her - she sounded stronger than she had in weeks. With her usual tone, she was unhappy to be there & not excited at the prospect of having to go to a nursing home - rather than back home. I made calls & she was moved to one of Boulder's nicest facilities. During our last conversation - just two days before, she was looking forward to a meeting with the Doctor & staff to decide on the date she'd be released & what type of in-home care she would need.
So when the call came - I was caught totally off-guard. (We'd been working non-stop for two days to empty the last of our things out of storage & move them to the house.) Butch took one look at me & realized what had happened. As he wrapped me in his arms, all I could do was stand there as the grief washed over me... A feeling of emptiness so complete that words can't begin to describe it. Both my parents - now gone...
I called both daughter's, spoke to my other Aunt before we drove home. We worked into the night to unload the truck, close the house & pack to leave - on a shorter trip than if we'd still been in Washington. Late the following day, we were in Boulder, where my sister - who flew in from AZ met us at Mom's. As it was when we lost Dad, walking into the house that had been Mom's home for so many years - without her there - was awful.
|Mom's Home 1/16 Boulder, CO|
Mom loved to drive & loved to take long distance road-trips. While her health was good, she visited family & friends in Iowa several times. She had made the drive to Washington too, by herself on several occasions & loved the state. With my sister Laurie & her family in AZ, Mom made that drive as often as she could - loving the area enough that she'd thought of moving there.
|Mom at the Leaning Tree - 08|
|Me & Mom - at Dad's 10/12|
Rest in Peace Mom - know that your family will always love you & keep you in our hearts. We will cherish our memories of the happy times & will remember & appreciate the great gifts that you've given us~